"friends"

This will be the mother of all blogs I think hahaha but the last 3 days i've spent int he hospital I was having CRAZY pain in my lower abdomen and I had no idea what the heck was going on. I went to the ER where they discovered i have a few cysts on each of my ovaries that were causing all this pain. I was there for 10 hours the first time and NOBODY could help with Cecilia so she had to endure the hospital as well. I came home and the next morning i was in even more pain i went back to find out that one of my cysts had ruptured. While all this is going on I was so sad and I couldn't relax because Cecilia kept screaming and crying and there was nothing we could do because nobody was willing to help. Now I am waiting to hear from a specialist on if I will need to go ahead and get a surgery for this my mother got a hysterectomy from this and my grandmother ovary burst from this! This is a lot to discover in one week the fact i might never be able to have another baby was kind of hard to grasp. When I go I will find out if I can have a baby before any surgery is done! Through this whole experience I have learned that the people claiming to be friends were not friends at all. If any of my friends needed me for something like this especially i would have been RIGHT THERE with them every step of the way. I have been praying and praying for what I should do about this and I think the answer is to just move on make new friends. I just keep trying to hold my head high Kyles family will be here soon and hopefully that will make things easier after that I am just going to work on my family and getting things ready to try for another munchkin. If all is well I want to start trying in August. All in all it's been a very stressful time BUT I have learned a lot from this experience.