"friends"

This will be the mother of all blogs I think hahaha but the last 3 days i've spent int he hospital I was having CRAZY pain in my lower abdomen and I had no idea what the heck was going on. I went to the ER where they discovered i have a few cysts on each of my ovaries that were causing all this pain. I was there for 10 hours the first time and NOBODY could help with Cecilia so she had to endure the hospital as well. I came home and the next morning i was in even more pain i went back to find out that one of my cysts had ruptured. While all this is going on I was so sad and I couldn't relax because Cecilia kept screaming and crying and there was nothing we could do because nobody was willing to help. Now I am waiting to hear from a specialist on if I will need to go ahead and get a surgery for this my mother got a hysterectomy from this and my grandmother ovary burst from this! This is a lot to discover in one week the fact i might never be able to have another baby was kind of hard to grasp. When I go I will find out if I can have a baby before any surgery is done! Through this whole experience I have learned that the people claiming to be friends were not friends at all. If any of my friends needed me for something like this especially i would have been RIGHT THERE with them every step of the way. I have been praying and praying for what I should do about this and I think the answer is to just move on make new friends. I just keep trying to hold my head high Kyles family will be here soon and hopefully that will make things easier after that I am just going to work on my family and getting things ready to try for another munchkin. If all is well I want to start trying in August. All in all it's been a very stressful time BUT I have learned a lot from this experience.

time to stop being such a bast!

    I have not posted in a while as my friend katie pointed out to me so here it goes. haha Cecilia is now 1. She had her check up they gave her lots of shots and even drew her blood it was SOOOO sad . She weighs 21 lbs and is 31 inches long big girl!
 The weather here in florida has been AMAZING I spent most the lay laying outside on the swing getting some sun. I know I say that I am trying to lose weight a lot BUT I have lost 10lbs and i'm shooting for another 10 more before Kyle's parent get here april 10th. I am not givin in this time Kyle and I want to have another baby and i'm not going to be fat and then get prego again no way man.
 This weekend Kyle and I are not doing anything I purposely did not clean all week so that I would have to clean all weekend because we normally go out to eat on the weekends and I don't want to feel tempted not this early in my progress at least!
 Not really anything else going on I started makin Kyle take vitamins haha. He hates them but he is being nice about it at least! t Tonight I need to look up some healthy recipes to cook for the family this week. I have ladies night the 19th and I am pretty happy about that because i'm actually going to eat whatever I want for dinner! We are going to Olive Garden I have been craving the calamari! Anyway I'll take some pictures tomorrow of the wee one and post them later gators.